I went there
to become aware of everything,
the items and the objects and to
look beyond what would be
obvious. It is a place where I
can look at the energy, watch
and observe to see how things
have changed. At this time when
I went there, I knew that I
would find some interesting
clues that have been placed
there for me to unfold that will
help me in my consciousness
change and transformation and to
remember these experiences. I
also knew to be very aware,
because my non-physical home is
very alive, it has a
consciousness like my physical
body and souls aspects that
reflect me in some way and I
realized that as I discover and
explore the rooms, corridors,
tunnels, boxes and cupboards
inside and outside of my home
environment, I will discover and
uncover things that will help
me, the valuable tools, to
create a consciousness change.
How did I
get there and what did I
discover?
Going into
my safe-nowtime-breath-feel-allow
space I invited in Acacia, my
correspondent and gnost, my
creative solution to go on this
journey with me. Through the
breath, I embodied all the
facets of self and said ‘yes’ to
choose life.
In my
ethereal home, I discovered that
I had all the physical landscape
features that I love. I had
built a grand Queensland cottage
that overlooked a beautiful
garden with all types of
colourful plants and granite
rock borders and features. The
landscape designs and the
textured plants came from many
multi-cultural environments –
all accepted as one. Little
attention was given to the
inside of the cottage, but it
was pleasant and comfortable,
yet small and simple, except for
the decoration of many painting
– it was just like an art
gallery. My main focus was on
the outside, what was in the
garden?
Outside in
the landscape my imagination
expanded. Surrounding my cottage
were four different scenes - one
overlooked the rocky coastline
that stretched out to the
distant horizon line over the
crystal blue waters filled with
coral reefs and waves breaking
upon a rocky outcrops and soft
white sand. Another scene
overlooked the huge rugged red
gorge carpeted with lime green spinifex and white gums with an
odd bottle tree that vanished
into the distant blue mountains
and into the wetlands of the far
north. The other scene
overlooked the green and gold
undulating hills of the high
country where brumbies roam.
These hills are divided by
creeks, rivers, gorges and lakes
from the distant snow capped
blue mountains. The most
relaxing place is the
rainforest, this was part of my
garden, filled with staghorns,
tree ferns, white gums, huge fig
trees, creeks and waterfalls
that ran into a crystal clear
rock pool. I saw these scenes in
the early morning dew, in the
heat of the day and the late
afternoon setting sun and the
moonlight shining on its
textured form. They came into my
reality upon choosing what
potential I desired to see.
What
intrigued me the most was the
rainforest that was part of my
garden! Deep within the forest
was a gushing waterfall falling
over a cave and into a crystal
clear pond. Huge trees towered
up to the sky. Roots of these
fig trees grew over the granite
rocks and deep into the leaf
littered moist soil.
Walking
beside the rock pool, ducking
behind the waterfall, I
excitedly walked into the dark
cave. But, it wasn’t dark for
long. The cave lit up, to see
brilliant rock structures,
channels, stalactites and water
dripping from the long thin
crystalline spears. Beautiful
clear water pools lay among the
cave walls. Inside the cave
seemed like a termite mound that
had a maze of pathways and
tunnels that formed under the
mountain ridge.
A narrow
corridor led to a darker area.
There I saw a young face behind
a prison bar. Strangely, I
opened the door without question
and thought little more of it
and continued on with my
journey. (Obviously, at that
time I wasn’t ready to address
that stuck and wounded aspect so
I continued on).
My journey
ventured on through new
channels… until I came to the
end of the tunnel. Light shone
in, but there was a brighter
light, an image of a golden
castle filled with diamonds,
jewels and many colourful riches
in the middle of a lake. The
lake was surrounded by lush
lilies, irises and butterflies.
A rainbow shone upon this
building to light it up with
colourful dewdrops that dripped
upon the pool of water below.
Walking over
the draw bridge and into the
castle I came across many chests
loaded with jewels and riches of
all sorts. I didn’t open them
for the gold pieces and coins
were spilling out. The ceiling
and walls of the castle was
lined with jewels, and, being
multi-dimensional, it turned
into a cave of diamonds, opals,
sapphires, pearls, amethyst and
rubies. For some reason I
ignored the jewels and riches,
but what intrigued me the most
was the huge picture window at
the end of the corridor. Getting
closer to the picture window, I
realized that I was looking
through the glass and into my
reality landscape. It was
actually looking into the rooms
of my Queenslander cottage. It
was alive and real, but the
thick glass was only a one-way
view. I could see all the
activity of my home, I could see
all the abundance potentials
that I could have chosen to act
out, but there was only ‘just
enough’ in the reality landscape
at that time. I tried to
connect and yell out to the
aspect of me sitting in the
living room, but she could not
hear. I did not even know where
this doorway was that led into
the hall - the room of abundance
within this castle. Where would
this mystery entry door have
been in my cottage?
Suddenly I
realised that it was there, but
it was not there, depending upon
my consciousness level and the
paradox of duality was at play. The
Queenslander cottage is built in
a dualistic world, until I
became awakened - the doorway is
nothing but a veil, the fog that
cannot see the abundance of the
castle that is waiting there for
me to call in that potential
through my conscious choice. I
realized that the abundance
energy cannot come in until the
lack energy would allow it to
come in. It had to be within my
consciousness first and it was,
but it was not activated – it
was dormant. So there the
abundance energy is waiting
until I had a consciousness
shift, to be willing to change
and release the energy of ‘just
enough’ so it can transform into
an abundance energy. The
consciousness shift is to allow
my soul-spirit self, my divine
self to express its needs, then
the physical just enough needs
are taken care of – that is
living my authentic truth unto
my own soul desires.
I could not
break the glass within the
castle walls, and I tried. When
I looked around, the castle room
had changed. The maze of
corridors had gone. There were
no other doors or corridors up
or down, left or right to go
down, the only way out was the
way I came. The castle of grand
rooms turned into a one-way cave
of jewels.
Turning around, I knew that I
had to go back the way I came.
I also had to go back to my
cottage for the abundance energy
could not come in from the
outside. It could not be given
to me for I had to allow that
energy to come in from being
within my Queenslander cottage
of ‘just enough’ – i.e. to be at
home in physical form in my safe
now space. The cave led only
one way, thinking that I had to
go back via the same route, but
it had changed. The landmarks
were different. On one side of
the cave I saw the beauty and
the light of life, but the other
was the dark aspects that are
stuck, waiting to be set free.
Suddenly I
came across the prison cage that
I had ignored before. There was
a young face peering through the
bars. Feeling the energy, tears
physically ran down my face as I
felt the energy, for I knew that
it was the image that reflected
many sleep walking experiences
during my physical life,
thinking that a pet had not been
fed and looked after, it had
been forgotten and ignored - it
was left to go hungry. Hungry
for what – food, abundance or
love, compassion and
acceptance? That pet was me, it
was an aspect of me.
Moving on I
came across other experiences
and events. I realized that all
these events came from what I
feared the most on earth of
being ridiculed for my beliefs,
my truth. I saw the fear of
being locked away, being
drowned, burnt and hanged and
these same fears present itself
in this physical life of being
afraid of being confined in
small places and not seeing out,
being underwater, having no food
and lack, and the fear of
heights, fire, heat and
expressing myself verbally in
public. These are the fears that
have been in my physical
experience. After breathing,
releasing and freeing these
energies I was able to briefly
feel the gift in each
experience. I felt overwhelmed.
The tears of joy ran down my
face, as I felt the energy being
freed from the ridicules and the
hardships of the past. I felt
the gift of these experiences,
to let go of the old, to
integrate the separation of my
core essence and then to
rediscover the self in a new and
profound way. The journey has
locked away my core self,
denying my own energy balance
and then to discover my total
self in a new way.
Eventually I
came to the end of the journey,
not at the mouth of the cave in
the rainforest behind the
waterfall, where I first began
this journey. It had changed.
The journey ended in my
Queenslander cottage. The
tunnel led me directly into my
living room in my cottage.
Looking outside the window I saw
my garden and a grand tree with
huge exposed roots, the guardian
tree of my cottage. This time
it had webs of threads of golden
jewels weeping from its canopy,
and I saw my landscape
environment – the sea, desert
gorges and wet lands filled with
wildlife, the hills, rivers and
mountains of the high country,
and the rainforest and
waterfalls.
As I stood
in the living room of my
cottage, my interest at the time
was to look for the secret
doorway. I looked around for the
door to the castle of abundance,
but it was not there. Breathing
in deeply, stepping into my
safe-nowtime-breath-feel-allow
space, I gave permission to move
my consciousness to the next
level. I looked beyond the
obvious and to see beyond the
known and perception of the
conscious mind. I saw a painting
– it was the painting of
Carioca, the second painting I
did in my new energy style. It
was painted in blue – for trust
and truth. The white horse was a
reflection of me – my
self-worth, standing on the lake
edge overlooking the Halfmoon
Gorge, standing in front of a
cave in a steep cliff. Above
her is the horn of abundance,
and my face with an upside down
rainbow. There are many symbols
that relate to the new energy
universal principles that
dropped its essence onto the
horses back. I knew that this
painting related to my new
journey into being the standard
teacher of tomorrow.
Then, I saw
another painting above it. It
was the first painting I did in
my new energy style. It was
painted in dark blue – to
reflect the dark moonlight of
the night. Dark blue sets the
mood of duality, of the old, the
time to release the old, for the
painting was named ‘Evolutionary
Change”.
As I combined
these two painting together, one
above the other, it formed a
door. Granting myself
permission, I allowed myself to
open the door. As I opened
the door I came to realize that
my Queenslander cottage and the castle of
abundance was unified, not
separate, only appearing and
perceiving to be separate due to
the fog in the physical
consciousness, whilst playing
the game, my masquerade story in
duality. As I allowed myself to
integrate and meld the dualistic
aspects of both the light and
the dark to form one, the cave
of jewels, the room within the
castle of abundance came into
being. The foggy thick glass
window was never really there in
the first place.
As I entered
the room, I saw other paintings
and I felt many different
energies. I felt my angelic
family surrounding me with
welcoming songs and I felt the
energy of home. It was very
overwhelming. Tears came rushing
into my being as I wept for joy
of feeling the energy of my
family. Yet, I felt somewhat sad
that I knew that I could not go
home. I came to know that home
has come to me for the journey
has changed because I have
changed. I knew that it was a
consciousness shift, to change
to go beyond from the lack
energy to abundance energy for
it is my divine birthright to
have abundance, to meld the
dualistic opposites of the light
and the dark and to claim my
energy balance and, I saw and
felt the melding of the jewels
within the cave of the castle of
abundance integrating within me,
my cottage. My Queenslander cottage and the
castle of abundance are ‘one’ –
they have never been separated –
only my perception and truth
allowed that to occur through
living in a dualistic reality.
****
Early the
next morning in my dream state,
I went back to my ethereal
cottage. I opened the door where
the paintings hung – everything
had changed again. The cave's
tunnel from this door was dark
and seemed long and at first
there was nothing there.
Suddenly light came in to the
darkness, the light shone on a
large red heart with a sword
stuck in it. Getting closer the
heart with a sword sticking out
of it looked like a sword of
Excalibur. The sword is stuck
hard in the red heart, in the
middle of the water, but in the
heart I could see the castle
within it – its beauty – the
abundance – the lake and
beautiful scenery surrounding
it. The abundant castle in the
heart's rock is my creatorship
within the core heart of self.
I asked
myself – ‘Am I ready and willing
to release the stuck scarcity
energy – the sword stuck in the
wounded red heart’. After
saying ‘yes’, the water receded
and a bridge formed so I could
reach the heart and the sword.
Again I asked
myself, ‘Am I ready and willing
to allow the freedom and flow of
abundant energies to be
expressed through my loving and
compassionate heart - to live my
authentic truth and allow myself
to express that experience?
Verbally I said yes and as I
touched the sword, it released
itself from the heart and I was
able to pull out the sword. As
I pulled out the sword, the
heart turned a brilliant glowing
soft pink. That is when I
released the stuck sword, the
lack of worth and love of self.
Misty fog
came in as the heart and the
sword glowed as I felt the need
to begin expressing. Suddenly I
found myself in the living room
of my Queenslander cottage – I
saw the symbol of the heart
within many of my
paintings.
